Because of fears, not jsut of people “haha” at me, but because of how msall and weak i can be. imaging working under people who would see me no more than a puppet would have been horrible for me.
and I’ve always had a dream, where i can just create and not have to worry about sacrificing my humanity or the things or ones I love.
at one point, i was like, “maybe i can open up my own studio! where people don’t have to worry about getting touched” and with what money? lol.

if i were to blow up soon, because of the state of the countries, it sucks i never brough any of the projects ive held close for many years into fruition. but ya know? i think i’m finally starting to see a shift into people in society of what I’ve yearned for a very long time.
sounds vague, I know. but maybe i will have enough time to show something.

i really want to get this sketchbinder out of the way, it’s my priority.

i have lost many things in life, and losing my sketchbinder would probably break me, but as long as I keep this site up, I wouldn’t have to worry so much. the binder contains drawings of the span of 16 years. Middle school to high school, and a bit of my adults years.

i can go one and on about my relation with art, but i hate how i don’t have proof of my love.
which is why i need to put myself out there.