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okay i decided not to re-do the video and just make a much shorter result video in my youtube and here’s the full video

March 26, 2026
this world is terrifying and i can’t do much about it. all i can is continue my life until it’s time.
it’s weird, maybe i was meant to just help people here and there.
I’ve always regretted not putting myself out there, and when i do, I always end up leaving or abandoning.

Because of fears, not jsut of people “haha” at me, but because of how msall and weak i can be. imaging working under people who would see me no more than a puppet would have been horrible for me.
and I’ve always had a dream, where i can just create and not have to worry about sacrificing my humanity or the things or ones I love.
at one point, i was like, “maybe i can open up my own studio! where people don’t have to worry about getting touched” and with what money? lol.

if i were to blow up soon, because of the state of the countries, it sucks i never brough any of the projects ive held close for many years into fruition. but ya know? i think i’m finally starting to see a shift into people in society of what I’ve yearned for a very long time.
sounds vague, I know. but maybe i will have enough time to show something.

i really want to get this sketchbinder out of the way, it’s my priority.

i have lost many things in life, and losing my sketchbinder would probably break me, but as long as I keep this site up, I wouldn’t have to worry so much. the binder contains drawings of the span of 16 years. Middle school to high school, and a bit of my adults years.

i can go one and on about my relation with art, but i hate how i don’t have proof of my love.
which is why i need to put myself out there.

March 6, 2026
I’m so happy with my progress on this site!! for the past few weeks I’ve been just trying to make it look cute and have it function easy for visitors!

I would like to add a few things…
I would like to customize the sidebar for just my sketchbook page to blend in with that specific theme, but I kinda like the pink on top of that background I have, over there. I could also just add a cute collapse button. I definitely need to add a back-to-top button. owo

but i really need to really focus on getting this giant sketchbinder in so i can get that off my shoulders

I kinda wish I-
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I have a fucking printer

yall

I’ve been taking fucking photos with my camera instead of using the fucking scanner for the printer i got like three months ago that i completely fucking forgot was a built in fucking scanner

i can’t believe this

i was literally going to say that i need a scanner but with the pencil marks and the way i taped everything could ruin it and then bamm

i look up and “oh i can flatten it-…”

i feel so fcking stupid AAAAAAAAA

also i need a job

March 5, 2026
bruh i’m ngl

i need to edit and post photos for my sketchbook page, and i’m still very nervous about it, because i’m not used to being so vunerable, and i feel like my art will expose parts of me that i’ve always kinda hid and stuff…

i’m also nervous about any nosy people at potential work places, but like, it’s not like i’m acting out here- just, different. i honestly thought about making my internet sona different, but i like my old simple traits: cat ears and tail.

i guess people describe this as a kemonomimi, or, nekomimi. and tbh i just found this out this year, i honestly had those traits on my internet sona since middle school, like over 10 years ago, for sure. i never really wore cat ears in public, i wasn’t able to be that kid. not just family, but living in the city would have had consequences, lol.

even as an adult, i really wouldn’t outside unless it was October, but I’ve been wearing them for Tiktok to fit my internet persona, but that’s the more embarrassing part if a nosy fuck sees that, but tbh, like, WHATEVER WE’RE ALL GOING TO DIE LMAO i rather wear some fake fucking ears than to die extremely prude and boring. ToT

i’m surprise i honestly typed this much but i’m trying to push myself to use my website more and be more open, because it’s not like there are people around me that can relate to me and shit like that u,w,u

February 28, 2026
Website Materials :3

Here are some sources I’ve used~.

WordPress – Stewart Theme

https://pixels.crd.co/#pixels

https://tiled-bg.blogspot.com

https://pixelsafari.neocities.org/dividers/

https://luvstarkei.com/website-resources-and-graphics-collection/

February 20, 2026
what i drew on tiktok live

February 19, 2026
what i drew in stream tiktoklive

it was like 40 minutes long, i was so tired but it took forever for me to figure out how to play around with vtube studios,w hich i couldn’t even use on tiktok until i do it two more times for haf an hour. weird. anyways, i finally put myself out there. :’)

February 10, 2026
hewwo

i keep getting banned in different socials so here i am ahahahhah TwT

April 30, 2025